i woke up. the ceiling was the first thing that i saw once i opened my eyes. i'm automatically get up from my bed. i open the windows. oh my god .. i can feel the fresh breeze running through my face and my body. this is the real peace. i take my shower a few minutes after that. i get dressed up. wearing the simplest that i could. drying up my hair soon after that.
i suddenly received a phone call. but, i ignored it. i didn't even take a look on my phone to see who's calling me. sometimes, i really need some times to be alone. i just don't want to talk to anyone in that certain times. i just want to be alone. please understand me. and don't get me wrong.
i sat on a black couch. alone. while staring at the windows. oh my god .. this is so peaceful. i stood. and slowly walk towards my window. i looked outside. what a great view. i can see the traffics. the cars, trucks are everywhere. including the bikes. other than that, i can see the shops, restaurants, movie theater with loads of customers.
i forgot everything. i don't remember any single moments of my sadness, depression .. i was blank. there's nothing in my mind. nothing at all. the only thing that i know is .. i'm alive. i opened my door. going out for a while. i was taking for a walk along the street. i was walking .. walking and walking .. i was seriously weird.
i didn't even made an eye contacts to the people. i don't know where am i. i don't know what am i gonna do. i don't know. yes, i don't .. i suddenly saw a dark green chair just right in front of me. there's nobody sitting on the chair. no one. so, i sat. i sat down. watching the footsteps that passes me by.
i was obviously alone. a few minutes after that, i walked home. i saw a lot of humans' behaviour, attitude and so on .. the first time ever, i felt so alive. i was living by myself. i do everything just by myself. without anyone's help. i'm alone. nobody is distracting me. nobody is disturbing me. nobody is hitting me. and the most importantly, nobody HURTS me. this feeling, is so peaceful. :')
this is what i really want for this time. i just need some times to be alone. i really do. to relax up my mind. my body and everything. i just need some times. like seriously ..
i wish i was as peaceful as this.
feeling peace .. by myself. alone. with nobody.
i wonder, when can i feel such a peaceful moments .. and i even wonder, when can i even get SUCH A PEACEFUL LIFE ...
